Oct 24, 2004
finally Aqim Kakashi has returned after recuperation..
hello u peepz and peepettez...after one month of recuperating in my house....not because of exams....but because of a few issues....exams have finished and my results not yet shown....im waiting...finally i dun have to worry abt my results...ok lah but dun think my results can get me into the top 40...at the most top 80 only...im not a smartass like some ppl....gonna take my favourite subject next yr....BIOLOGY....den after two months...gonna say gud bye to wearing shorts....and say hello to long pants!!gonna miss the showing off hair times...hahaha...well my past days was normal...nothing unusual....it's the fasting month now....and im sitting at home...playing gunbound....i wanna noe any of u ppl have played gunbound....haiz....den haryati's results....i can't say it...but as long as it satisfies her...den im satisfied....well gonna promote to sec 3 soon....meet new teachers...old ones too....but man my NAZI party's broken up....even though there's only two ppl...farhan's chosen to go to Pure Geography class....Syafiq's gonna take Pure Double science(Physics and Chemistry)....im taking Biology and Combined science....hope i can pursue my dreams...become doctor or scientist....well it's been so long since i last updated this blog....i dun feel anything....i dun even care....well yesterday...got pumped cos my section's black file torn....i really am getting weaker by the day....and i need strength...i have sources of strength now....but currently cannot...cos fasting....im acting all sissy now....im 75% sure that im gonna change next yr....with specs...long pants...and a whole new package....well i wrote long enuf...i will update everyday(if im able to)for u ppl to noe abt my life....well im u wanna noe more abt me....ask me urself....until next time....finally...i have come back after 1 month of recuperation....until next time
Bakura wrote at 03:17 pm by yami_bakura
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Sep 22, 2004
pessimistic or juz plain dumb?i think both....
i managed to sneak to the computer to update....but wat the fuck these yr has been....well let's talk abt the situation arnd me....crap,romance,lafter,pervertness,etc....i can tolerate but i can't tolerate ppl calling me two-timer shit and all.....im not....i am feeling downhearted....when the f*** can i stop all this nonsense??....well today was nth(i mean yesterday....i typed at early morning today).....ppl said hafizah came...true enuf....hockey ppl came to see her....i din lah...dun wanna tell...extra ah u guyz...hehe....den had to do gate duty....still the boss....but ain't doing my job rite....like a bloody fucker....crap sial.....i really miss all the joys and lafter i once had.....now wat have i become....pessimistic and a true lamer.....not natural but basic fact abt me....yeah....din go in music room....only for a while....i dun wanna have anything to do with the band....i isolate myself too much....ppl avoiding me juz bcos im unfunny and uncool...duh??wat can u expect from me??den go home watch titanic....too sentimental lah me....cry during the ending....weak guy...the guy dies...den the girl also dies....can happen in real life....man i lost someone precious to me already....i dun wanna lose anyone anymore....i can't bear to see anyone leave me....i noe im a lonely type of guy....but i really can't bear to see anyone go....unless its me....its true im very pessimistic and negative stuff and etc....but.....i really can't continue....sorry guyz....i really can't write....still crying after the titanic story....so many ppl cherished in my heart....cannot bear to see them leave me....FUCK YOU GUYZ MAN.....WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE ONE WHO DOESN'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR OTHERS!!!!?!??.....
Bakura wrote at 12:03 am by yami_bakura
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Sep 13, 2004
been a while since i updated this shit....hehe
i did say i din want to update it anymore.....but for the sake of sum ppl who wish to noe more abt me...im sorry but if u really wanna noe....ask me personally....dun come tagging in my blog and say i wanna noe more abt u and other crap....today is very stressful day....fucking teachers....no freedom given to students....fuck off lah....in school...woke up in the morning....reach school so early....saw syafiq and faizal....syafiq din do hmwk....so let him copy mine....den i gave him the trophy and he gave the $10 he owed.....den went to band store......took out instruments....den rained....suddenly stopped...wasting time arh....stupid rain....den i got this stupid headache until now.....den in cls...go down for PE....den eddie wong teach us play softball....he thinks im a weirdo....den scolded me for playing badminton....effing irritated....den played the stupid game....which was kinda fun....but i always get the headache every now and den....after dat ER period....everyone was scared cos of mdm tai....she told us abt the hostage news thingy and hurricane ivan hitting cuba....quite interesting but i dun read news and watch the news....den got home econ....lucky borrowed cloth from aznor....did the practical with syafiq.....SARDINE!!!....i think im allergic to sardines but everytime i look at them....i get sick and feel like throwing up....den finish got geography....btw....failed my home econ test....got 8/25....who cares....back to geography.....do some things mr ng ask to do....den finish school....mrs ho said no remedial...so happy man...but im still having headache....man....can't anyone help me to massage my aching head??....den suddenly during band practice....became so serious....den haryati and fadhillah got called by teachers....den got break....tried to find them....found them but they woudnt wanna talk....den i suddenly got stomach cramps....ouch!!!....den bla bla bla....after band...owe majors 15....owe QM 10....fuck lah....den got headache....sialan punyer bastard siak.....i dun wanna talk anymore....i really can't bear the pain...no one helping me to massage.....go to hell....AND I AIN'T GONNA TALK TO YOU AGAIN!!!! I'VE BEEN BEARING THIS PAIN LONG ENUF....I TOLERATED ONCE OR TWICE....BUT THIS IS TOO MUCH....until next time....
Bakura wrote at 07:36 pm by yami_bakura
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Sep 3, 2004
2dae was a brutal day....hahahaz....
well today very brutal man....wake up...have to report in school by 7.00....but reach there 6.50.....den....suddenly fall in....wah...but everyone not k siao wan....hehe....den national anthem....really sucked lah truthfully....but i can't do anything....den go cls....wah again nth to do....draw digimon...wakakaakz....den recess....help farhan wif the graphy shit....i dunno how the hell oso want to do but heck care one lar....den got maths..........KKKKKKRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIINNNNGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!.....wah!!!fire alarm....everyone so damn funny....den all was like shouting and screaming....syafiq busket go and play wif the lights like disco pub....hahaha....so damn funny....den everyone line up.....den go to field....fucking hell ants....kept on biting me....lucky nvr bit my wound....if not....i'll scream like hell arh....bloody fishes....den got mother tongue....den do things....den
Bakura wrote at 07:37 pm by yami_bakura
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Aug 24, 2004
LiViNg In dArKnEsS wItH rOmEo
today was nothing much....except for a few things that arose....why the freakin hell did i make this blog anyway?to let others noe abt my problems and life?i noe i want to express my feelings but i think that this thing isn't working out for me...i dun write my entries daily....wats the point....then ppl comment bcos of my character...what has it got to do wif them??im such a loser...a lamer....i think juz do away wif this thing im writing in for good....but i dun wanna lose ol dat i done.....back to school...woke up...forgot to finish up my mindmap for science.....den got maths and history exam....juz the freakin tooters...maths...haiz...i think i rather fail all my subjects....seems like nth is going the way it seems...but that's life....gotta move on....den history....mrs ho invigilate.....i did ol...but couldn't understand the structured question....wat the eff man....den recess...saw fatin....drawing staircase....i really dun wanna talk already lah....seems like i can't live on in life properly....with blames and finding faults wif me....i feel like im turning into wat i used to be a few months ago....my alter ego is like coming back to haunt me....but im trying not to let it come to me....i shouldn't give up....i still got long yrs...but too long for me...everyone's making fun of me....feels like im juz some kind of 'advisor for problems' type guy and nth else....i hate myself....until next time...
Bakura wrote at 09:18 pm by yami_bakura
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Aug 17, 2004
man....it really hurts so bad...i wanna cry!!!but i can't
i am a very sick bastard...i dun think i'll be able walk properly...im having walking problems....i dun wan to come to school....but i have to live on....this was wat happened and i think i almost lost sumthing....on monday....well finally got soccer....den actually wanted to play badminton...but nvm....den 2EE and 2ED students also joined....den make team....my team suck big time sial....den lost at penalty....not my fault....den got one time i accidentally kicked the ball using my left toe....one of my nails was rotting...den....PAK!!....my nail got peeled off from the skin...sick man!!...wat is even gross is that....the nail din come off...it was dangling on my skin....den blood was gushing out but lucky it stopped....den went back cls....my god!!!!i wanted to cry but my tears juz can't seem to come out....fuckerz of arses man....den for the whole day....wore my shoe....while i had to hold of my agony....aRGHHH!!! couldn't find fatin that day...haiz....so sad....and it really hurts...was limping so badly....den today....again lah...i think i really wanna kill myself man....my toe still pain...mum told me to wear sandals...but i din listen...i dun want to get teased at...cos ppl always say i nvr get accident one....den the whole day also still painful....got band....but theory for juniors only....go for sectionals...my section is slacking man....even the seniors not coming for band....thursday got meeting...den have to memorise the whole sheet of commands...man my post got a lot of commands to give....ok back to today...den sectionals...i was alone with other sections....den played curse...wat remix sia?kugan anyhow say only....crap lah....dunno how to conduct some more....next time challenge me lar...haha...den after that wanted to wait for fatin....but waited so long...din go to macdonald's cos she'll surely be there.....wif her frens....so i went home limping like funny asshole....still bad...wanted to peel off the nail....but its too painful for me to endure it...i noe im a guy....but its too much for me....im not as tough as other guys....if u compare me to other guys...im much more weaker den dem.....argh!!!!....den haven finish hmwk....fuck sial....reach home...went to slp straight away....pain siak my toe....i really want to cry...fatin where were u?finding u like finding a piece of my heart...ill stop here....until next time
Bakura wrote at 11:22 pm by yami_bakura
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Aug 15, 2004
so long nvr update...wakakakaz
wow...it's been quite a long time nvr update....been quite lazy and busy at the same time to do things....well this was i had been doing during the past dew days.....nothing much and at the same time very sian sian....
Friday,13 August
still as normal any other school days....den go friday prayer....den had to replace myEZ link card cos it was defective....den went arnd northpoint....den went home do nth...iron my band T....den called my kakak angkat....she say want to meet me tmr...den i say ok lah...den wait tmr..
Saturday,14 August
WOKE UP LATE!!!....i was in a hurry to change,bathe and watever necessary...den go band....was late....but at that time they fall in already....den got band prac until 1....my junior was lost!!??i can't believe it but he went band....den poof!!! he became invisible man!!??....den from 1 to 2...got drillings...first time take them....i took some then drill them like hell....march on the spot for 10 mins....den turn turn for 10 mins....let them rest for two mins den drill like hell!!!actually i didn't want to do like dat but i didn't noe wat other commands to give...ask chun howe for the papers....dengo fetch my kakak angkat...den walk to northpoint with her...i knew something was wrong within me...so i ran away from her....fatin...im sorry i had to do this but i din want u to noe what is happening to me...den i had to send her home...cos i really din want her to noe my problems....i juz felt so scared and haunted.....i was unable to cry...but i noe i felt scared deep inside....fatin....i really need you....im scared.....wat's happening to me?....i felt so guilty leaving u behind like that...den i din talk to her.....i went home....running away from both my problems and her....i can't help it...sumthing is really wrong with me....met felicia chia with her fren....i sat at my sofa....feeling so sad and guilty....im sorry...but i think i dun wanna continue with my story...until next time....
Bakura wrote at 10:52 am by yami_bakura
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Aug 12, 2004
crap like helll arh today
today was nothing great...nothing unusual too....well actually was kinda bored....went school....during science cls....mrs thomas came in...mdm kamariah nvr come....she was shocked when we greeted her normally....haha.....den recess time....i was like disturbing sarrah the whole time.....im such an ass....haha.....den had to maintain the noise level....kinda lazy to do....but got JLOs....i dun seem to understand what the prefects were doing....well den santa claus tell us to come back cls...so damn frustrated...but got teacher....dunno wat the eff oso the name....chucky say mr soy....i tot mr soil...haha....den got ipw...did my maths hmwk wif fiq,Aan,Kal,ah Guang and chucky...i finish early so talk to mrs neo....ah Seng and Min Min wif her,talk nvr invite me...hehe.....den fiq came and talk abt wanting to take the CSI type course...maybe i oso want....den maybe one day...me and fiq work together become CSI members....hehe....den music mr sim nvr come...bo camp maybe...wish he got lost at the camp...haha....so bad.....mr fauzi came to cls....noisy man!!!...so i walk over to ah guang....talk to him....play games....den go back seats cos mdm aminah coming....den after dat got assembly....talk abt theft and shoplifting....crap....watever lah....den talk until 2.30....den mdm rohana talk abt CIP thingys....den sing school song...den help band members to do up certs...man why was i doing the work?i noe i nvr was chosen to do that...but i dun mind....den after dat help hafiz do sum things....wah...like hell man today....den i went home arnd close to 7.00....i dunno why the eff i went home dat late on a thursday....my card still needs to be replaced....haiz....such a crappy day...im still so sad cos fatin coming back tmr.....how long can i hold my sanity....releks....still got time to cool....she like a veeeeeeerrrrrrrryyyyyyyy close person to me....i feel like she's the closest to me.....i dunno why....but i feel like i cannot be happy without seeing her at least once a day....i'll stop here.....so until next time
Bakura wrote at 08:58 pm by yami_bakura
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Aug 8, 2004
today was juz plain boring....still can't find my wallet....since yesterday...well today wake up watch tv...eat...play game....like getting fatter all the time....haha....today no plans to go out....haiz.....sunday...such a boring day...really got nth to do...cannot go out cos no money....haha....fatin...fatin.....she going camp on tuesday...cannot see her for one week....well muz endure lah.....i can't juz manjer her all the time....well i think im gonna faint....dunno why but im feeling hot now.....den got lots of things to do...wait until tmr ah....national day....im so depressed cos a lot is happening this yr....concerning both living and non-living things....haiz....well i have nth else to say....until next time...
Bakura wrote at 04:28 pm by yami_bakura
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Aug 6, 2004
todae i was so proud of myself.....in the morning...went school...got to noe that still got duty muz do...so do lor....den got singing community crap....den all the YLDP members all go out dunno for wat oso....den sing together.....den after dat the lower sec go hall and upper sec go field....i was so sad cos cannot find fatin.....den got house cheering competition....den my group made cheer lah...den like so funny....making a fool of myself....den sec 1s turn....the sec 2s extra a lil bit....but in the end jasper(my house)won both the sec 1 and 2 categories....den had to perform at the parade square...still made a fool of myself....haha....den cheer like crap....den like everyone wasn't interested....den get prize for cheering thingy.....after dat went to third floor...got bad news ah cos mr shaiful voice like angry2 ah....den rochester talk to the prefects.....i muz learn to be more responsible....but im always on the move....frm 1st floor to 2nd floor and again and again...den wanted to wait for fatin at canteen but i forgot that i had friday prayers....so i left lah....i so guilty...told her to meet me but nvr did...den go friday prayers....den at 3 got soccer...me coming back at 6++.....i really am so happy today cos i made a fool of myself and i am so happy cos everyday seems like always muz see fatin....but next week cannot see cos she go sec 3 camp...nvm....ill stop here....until next time...
Bakura wrote at 02:28 pm by yami_bakura
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